Beauty from pain

My whole world is the pain inside me
The best i can do is just get through the day
When life before is only a memory
I'll wonder why God lets me walk through this place
And though i can't understand why this happened
I know that i will when i look back someday
And see how you've brought beauty from ashes
And made me as gold purified through these flames

Job 23:9-11 (King James Version)

⁹On the left hand, where he doth work, but I cannot behold him: he hideth himself on the right hand, that I cannot see him:

¹⁰But he knoweth the way that I take: when he hath tried me, I shall come forth as gold.

¹¹My foot hath held his steps, his way have I kept, and not declined.

The best we can do in any situation is to allow God to show us the good in it. Allow him to purify us and polish us. If we do this we will come out as gold. We have to allow beauty to come from the pain. Life is full of pain, But it's up to us what we do with it. Do you allow it to bring you down? Do you let it take you backwards instead of forwards?

No matter what is happening in your life right now, don't let it set you back, don't let it get you down. Grow and learn from it. Use it to empower you not deflate you.

Today I'm grateful for:

Beauty from Pain: Any Pain can be turned into something beautiful, if you allow God to take control and trust in Him.

Friends and Family: No matter how much Pain you have caused them, they still accept you. They allow beauty to come from the pain you've caused. I have failed both in many ways and I plan on living my life to make it up to them all. I am changing, I'm glad they are all just hanging in there until I am complete. When I come out on the other side, I will know who my true friends and my true family are because they will be there to meet me. I would not be where I'm at now w/o them and God.

My girls: They are growing up so fast. I am trying to learn to embrace them while they are still young. I don't want to spend my time just caring for them, it's got to be more than just that. I don't want to wait until it's too late. Seems like the day is usually spent just making it through to the end. Instead, I want to turn it around and make every hour I have with them precious and not wasted and not just trying to make it through to the end. I am working on this. It's hard when you are doing it alone, it's hard to not focus on just the needs, but they also need ME, not just what I can do for them!

Warm weather and the sun finally returning again. Today is going to be an awesome day. Caity has a softball game and I'll be able to enjoy it instead of freezing and in pain. I love watching her play and they are doing great this year. She wants to be a pitcher and she is going to do great I think, she starts lessons this weekend.

Today I hope that you don't let things discourage you but let them ENCOURAGE you. Let yourself be polished. Let Beauty come from the Pain.

Love you all!!!